last shabbos

my glasses are my eyes
blind and lost
without them
like some timid mole

I got lost on the way home
missed my exit,
mostly because
couldn't remember the way
couldn't even see my way either

I am scared of being alone forever
only a 24 year old can be afraid
as I am
sigh

J. is my strange,
younger and older sister
fun for a movie
good for a chat
yichud/negia sucks in this way
hope I don't lose her

E. is a flirt
making each boy
fall in love with her
all clustering around
in some pathetic
man-dance
bringing tribute to her
in the form of bravado
intellect