miserable

I've eaten too many tortilla chips
my stomach hurts
I'm browsing away messages
and feeling sorry for myself
what the hell am I doing?
Am I pissing my life away?
am I purchasing anything with this price?

right about now
I'm supposed to think
"H' has a plan for you"
"gam ze l'tova"
and all that

sometimes a glare from a chassid
makes me crumble,
saps my strength,
I'm going to bed